What’s the point…

If you don’t like rants you may not want to read this post. But quite frankly I can’t hold it in anymore.

College has drained me. Not merely to the point of having no energy (when does college not do that) but to the point where I just don’t care about anything. I used to love working with computers. Programming wasn’t just a fun way to occupy an afternoon, it was a passion. That is gone, destroyed by the machine of “education.” How can I work on my projects knowing that I have a ton of homework to do? But I have no motivation to do homework. Why should I? Half of it is pointless, the other half is mindless programming that I did when I was, oh I don’t know, ten? Eleven? So to escape the torture I work on projects or play video games. Which I can’t do, because I feel guilty for wasting my time.

And I’m paying for this wonderful experience.

There’s no point in talking to any of the faculty or administration about it. “This is preparing you for life,” blah, blah. Yeah well in life I’ll be recieving a paycheck for putting up with crap; I won’t be paying you so you can make me put up with crap.

In case one of my professors is reading this, I want you to know that it is not you that I’m upset with. It’s the whole system of “education” — this thing that’s supposed to give me passion for learning, not take it away. I have liked most of my professors, even the ones for the classes that I can’t stand. (Sometimes especially those.)

It’s also not any of my friends — actually it’s only because of my friends that I’ve made it this far. But enough it enough. This summer I will be putting together a resume and will start hunting for a programming job.

And If I get a stable one, then the hell with college.